Hello Family, I know its been long. I feel it myself, all rusty, lazy fingers, Lord I need a re-boot or should I say a rebirth. Maybe I need an overdose of both. A lot has changed since I was away and I accept all the blame. Truth be told, I got into another relationship that didn't work out again, this hit me so hard I left the whole of social media for him and anything that reminded me about him. That's a cowardly thing to do and yes I know that already but some desperate times needs desperate solutions. I am not proud that I do not practice what I preach neither am I proud of the fact that I have such a poor taste in men but as slowly as I healed from my self imposed hibernation I loved me some more.
Oh yes I asked the go to questions, Lord why, why am I single, is it something I have done in the past, was it because I was career oriented for a long time, was it because I refused to settle for some men that would literally become the "wives" in the relationship, am I difficult to get along with. Is my behaviour that repulsive. Can't I be flexible, why must I be so stiff.. maybe I need to flirt a little, join a gym, how much weigh am I to loose by the way?, Should I change my church, go out for drinks, maybe I should attend that famous beach party. What about prayer and deliverance sessions to break the chains of spinsterhood. Should I try to famz my married girl friends , maybe they could hook me up with their brother in-laws, but am I ready for the subsequent stories that touch?
I just had to wake up from my self imposed hibernation... it took me four years to accept I failed and admit that whatever would be would be. I know everyone wishes for a happy ending forget all the talk about feminism and girl power. I was once a poster child for the pink movement.
I was friend zoned when I had thought there was a spark. Imagine when you are so sure you have found the One and even planned your wedding and honeymoon destination, aso ebi colours and picked your bridal train in your head and you get friend zoned even before you could find the spark.
I fell into my deep slumber waiting for the proverbial kiss of love to wake me up and sweep me off my feet, while waiting I lost a dear uncle of mine, lost friends, while waiting a new government was formed, while waiting Naira fell to a record low, while waiting wedding vendors became so pricey, while waiting I missed my blog visitors,while waiting I got so bored I had to rouse myself from my slumber...
I don't know where my story will lead to, but while awake I will keep hoping, keep loving and keep trusting, just maybe the universe would align for me.
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(A Darn Good Year would continue running its series, please keep checking this space and I'll never run off the way I did again)
